Thursday, May 31, 2007

Hardship in College Life

It happened that yesterday, I handed in my form for my running for the INTIMA (Inner Most) Student Board as President, a bad tomato which I have never spoken to for 3 semester had finally voiced out his view on me being the future President if I ever get elected that I will never get my chance until next life. How thoughtful of him, people such as these in Subang Jaya should have rot to death in my point of view. Remember that whatever you will say with your pathetic tongue that spreads poison can kill you in return with your face smashed from every corner of the world.

If he thinks he's too good, he might as well go run for it instead of talking too much trash. I doubt he would, even if he gets to be the president. He'll be a bad leader like President Bush. Favouritsm and member bashing. Not even before election, there is already bad mouthing on other candidate. I can't really tolerate these kind of people in Malaysia.

On the other hand, I wonder if I would be able to compete the president seat with my low qualification. Some workaholic loves to achieve certificates to prove. 1 of my friend said that a a certificate is better than action or words everywhere. I wonder how I will overcome this problem.

People in Subang Jaya are strange. Just because you don't talk to them and had never got the chance to start a good proper conversation. They'll start to make an image out of you by spreading bad rumours that you have never done in your life. This has not only happened to me but also for Indian student and foregin student. I find this a sad case. If I ever get the chance to be president. I vow to make changes that will help my college to turn into a friendly sociable place to study in rather than a zombie town that doesn't know each other within the campus.

It's funny that when the people that hate you suddenly sees you trying to climb a high ladder like me trying to run for the President seat. A so called classmate of mine which I have never acknowledge until she starts a proper conversation who is also trying to run for the vice president thinks I'll never get the president seat because she actually said "he'll never get it, trust me". Well enough of my useless classmates that are hopeless even they can do well in academic, they still suck in PR. If you want to choose your friends, without even caring about other peoples feeling that you can simply trash your words on someone, then I think these people shouldn't deserver anything even mercy when they are at the tip of death.

Another thing about my assignment mate is that, he thinks he's pretty good that he can actually find most of the material which I am proud of but he's simply calling all the shots as if I need not to do anything. Well that's good for him, but he's giving me bad impression that he's too proud of himself because he feels more superior than me when I give him a little bit of face. I actually finished my part of assignment and asked him to double check to see if it suits but he actually gave me a good reply of "Go check it yourself, if it's wrong, you'll die yourself". I am proud of these students in Malaysia that will act so selfishly in assignment. No wonder there is no teamwork in online games in Malaysia Server nor is there any teamwork in real life.

However, out of everything that is still light in the darkness. There are still people that are playing teamwork. I wonder why I am surrounded by too lazy - weak people or too clever - arrogant fools.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Things that happened lately

Well, let's start by saying I watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3 yesterday with Sheng at MV. The movie was great and I think I am in love with Keira Knightley ! (I'm just a guy ...).

Then today... (Saturday), I was suppose to go for my orientation night at my campus (INTISJ) but didn't turn up for it at the last minute because ... my friend said it wasn't interesting and insisted me to play at CC instead... I really wanted to go for the orientation night but ... I don't know what happened to my Will ... >.<

Sunday I'll plan to do a lot of things ... finish my assignment part, photocopy some document and passport size photo for my election in my college's student body... I hope I can really take up the duty. It's a good opportunity for me to learn more things ... but at the same time I have fear that I might not be able to do it well.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

The guy that never moves on

Well, for those that doesn't know, it's been a long time since I last hung on a love cycle (2005). I don't think I will ever recover from that deep wound after so long. Hopefully things will change soon in my mind for the better thoughts in future. The reason I'm saying this is because I think I lost my sense of love. I am fearful to fall in love because I've been in a failure streak. Moreover, I've never loved anyone before, I don't know how to give love to someone that I actually like. It feels depressing sometimes to think that we have no one to truly provide love. You can say easily that "why not give your love for God?". Perhaps that will be another matter.

To summarize, I am just confused on what is love, I don't feel anything that relates to love because I don't know how it feels anymore. How I wonder how love would be like, does anyone set condition to love someone ?
I know it's not the time to think about all this things but I just want to express it out from my mind rather than keeping it inside and never to be foretold.


Thursday, May 17, 2007

Nothing Much

Like the title says, things are beginning to get busy, statistic is so hard because my course didn't go through the basic statistic before that. I had no idea why my head of program didn't appoint us to learn the basics first.

Assignments are already handed out, it's time I need to scratch my butt out from the sleeping mood and start doing them. Gosh how I want to say that I hate assignments >.<

Couldn't log into blogspot these few days, it took forever to load the log in page that I got fed up of logging into blogspot for a few days.

It has been raining heavily these few days during the evening. Strangely it stopped after 30 minutes later every time. I actually didn't do anything for break today as I felt so tired after chomping down a nasi lemak and a 750ml soy bean drink.

The Pirate of Caribbean 3 is coming out next Thursday but I plan to watch it on Friday, anyone interested ? leave me a msg through my phone, msn or in here =)

Friday, May 11, 2007

Cyclone

Things have been cyclonic this week as my mind goes round and round and round over matters.

Firstly, the thoughts of my current course, I feel as if I can't continue it anymore as it was too tough for me, it brings me back to my alternative to pharmacy course. Then again after looking back at those science paper gives me the headache. I felt helpless that I am no good in other things. I looked so desperate in need to search a way in life. I am afraid I might make the wrong decision that will carry on for the rest of my life in regret.

Secondly, the thought of part time job, I've never took up a part time job before because I probably don't know if I am able to do a job well. I don't know what job will suit me well, and I don't know when I can actually start taking up a part time job when I have studies to catch. It makes me curious how the work life would be.

Thirdly, I heard this over the radio (Hitz FM) about releasing our rant, anger, dissatisfaction and complain in life to another person that is willing to listen to our life. The radio said that we should not keep everything in ourselves. I think I have failed the whole thing in this part, I don't think I own a human heart anymore too. The reason I say this is because I do not complain, I rant no more, people are annoyed when I complain. People will just love to keep my complain and hurl it back at me in backfire. I just hate it when I want to make friends but I have to risk of being back stabbed at the same time if I fail to "pleasure" them in the friendship.
I am in such a misery that makes me think that trusting anyone will be my fatal flaw. I haven't had a good social life for a long time. I haven't meet anyone that is willing to sit down and talk to me. I haven't met someone that could actually knows what my mind wants. No, this is not about even finding a girlfriend, this is about just friends. It tires me that people around my age will boast about being in a good relationship with friends and family. Actually, it angers me somehow. I think I am tired to get into anymore relationship, it's better to be a loner.

Fourthly, I don't know why but I think I am losing respect in life. Whenever I tell something right, people won't just listen for once that I felt as if I want to kill them for not being rational in life. No elaboration further, I think this is unnecessary.


Monday, May 7, 2007

New Semester

It's the beginning of another new semester, there isn't much new faces to look at in my class today. Old boring relationships are about to roll again. Anyways not interested in friendship or girlfriend or boyfriend (if you think I am gay).

Anyways let's skip the relationship part and go to the subjects. Gosh I can start to imagine this semester is going to be tough ! There is a subject that is 100% based on assignment !! Crap. Then for the statistic subject, it is 100% examination based and it has 50 MCQ (Multiple Choice Question) question... wow that's like 2% for 1 MCQ.

It was a hot day today, my eyes could melt from the strong sunshine that could instantly blind my vision. Not to mention car windscreen that reflects even more light that adds in my eye can burn like "The Ghost Rider".

Well I hope I will start to enjoy my subject, I wonder if I can have a stable friendship with anyone this semester, cheers to myself.

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I've finally finished watching House MD Season 3 up to episode 10, I can't wait to download episode 11 - 21, if anyone happens to have a demonoid.com account, please send me an invitation code ! I really want to be a member in there to download the latest House MD TV series, Thank you very much !! =)

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Thoughts

So sorry that I didn't get to post these few days, I went for enrollment on 3rd May. I was glad that I passed all my subjects phew... right now I'm in my semester 2. I'll have Statistic, English, Finance, Microeconomic and Marketing subject. It'll be my first time having Finance >.< I wonder if the subject is hard.

I'm so glad that I can finally go back college after a long holiday (yea 3 weeks is long if you have nothing to do but sleep and play at home). But maybe my thoughts will change after the first week in college where I will beg for holiday but that's life right ? :P

Argh I can't think what I wanted to write since yesterday night !! actually I got few things to write about the way I think the way life runs and what makes me indifferent from other people. I think I'll need time to elaborate on them in my mind before putting this into post.


Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Spiderman 3

It's been awhile since I've blogged about something unnecessary, anyways this blog will be about the movie spiderman 3 =)

The event started when I booked 6 tickets few days before the movie in Midvalley. At first everyone was reluctant to join me for the movie because they were either busy, sick, not interested, outstation or having another important event going on. But at the last minute I called Sheng and Sherman to join me, Sherman brought his friends along to fit the 6 ticket slot. We had to pay RM12 per ticket gosh =.= how I dislike public holiday because we can't get student price !!.

Anyways about the movie, it's pretty cool and funny at the same time and also a little sad. But for some part of the movie, it failed to bring out the real feeling to the audience. The director has finally added in some hilarious joke to cheer up the sequence from its boring storyline.

Overall I would rate it 7.5/10, it's a good movie, next stop will be Pirates of the Caribbean 3 =).

After the movie, we decided to move out from Midvalley to have a game at MMORPG and after that I drove Sheng home.

Overall it's an enjoying day, I wish I can watch good movies everyday to cheer me up =).

On the other hand I had to enroll this 3rd May, gosh I am anxious of my result, I hope I didn't screw up any papers. My college starts next week Monday, finally I can get to attend college.