Existance

Ever reach to a point where it doesn't matter what you do, it seems you've never existed. Typically, I believe in this, I am feeling not anywhere near existing for what I'm doing, not feeling present to anyone's life. I'm just out of the history book. Now why is that happening ? The popular answer will be given, I deserve this because bla bla bla ya da ya da I don't want to listen those craps. Why did I even bother to post this up ? feels so annoying, no one would even read, oh I'll just treat it as a reference to myself. Yayyy YOINK!