My birthday celebration (2nd and 3rd Aug)

2nd August
The event started when I pick up Sherman and Jonathan from Danau Desa. We had a jam on the way since it was weekday (Thursday). We reached there around 7.30 pm and met up with Gadiy. Then we decided to look for classy restaurants, Gadiy's suggestion was at first to have it at All-Star Cafe but then he suggested to try out Chilli's. We agreed and waited for our turn to be seated. We ordered some nachos with beef sauce as starter while waiting for Shaun, James Lim and Han Sheng. We ordered dinner after everyone has arrived. I called for a fagrita .. something like tacos haha while others ordered lamb steak and hamburger (very big hamburger indeed). I drank more than 6 glasses of fruit juice that night. We crapped a lot that night especially with Han Sheng's sexist joke which brings down the ceiling lol. Soon after the dinner, I was surprised with a cake (Chocolate cake with banana inside). It was nice, but sadly I was bloated already with all the tacos !!. We consumed the cake until it left 3 slices and Gadiy started to say that he would dare himself to give 2 pieces of cake to the girls of 6 that sat beside our table who happens to celebrate 1 of their friend's birthday too, such a coincidence huh ? (our table had 7 guys :P). Gadiy talked crapped for 30 minutes without an action that he would do it, the bet on the table was RM5 from himself and Shaun add the stake by putting in a free movie ticket on later :P. Gadiy continued to accused us (Shaun and Me) as Jacun <-- dunno what it means lol... anyways ... suddenly I've decided to do the honor and take up the bet. I gave the ladies the 2 pieces of cake and took a picture with the birthday girl, I didn't want to take the phone number... felt paiseh haha... I got praised by all my friends for bravery :D ... Gadiy was speechless, after the dinner, we decided to catch Die Hard 4.0 or The Simpsons. Gadiy was deciding to pay me RM5 (he owed me RM5 from previous BBQ) but was reluctant to pay up but Shaun forced him @_@. Gadiy felt upset that night and left us alone .. he didn't join us for the movie... however, we moved on ... (hope you're fine now Gadiy, I felt bad) for the movie, there wasn't Die Hard 4.0 anymore so we watched the simpsons, it was really hilarious ! I laughed the whole night for every 3 minute in that movie, definitely a good movie that is worth watching. The night ended after the movie, I drove Sherman back home =) and received tons of SMS in my phone, Thank You To All My Friends !! I love you all =) I had a really nice day =)

James, Shaun, Sherman, Gadiy, Jonathan, Han Sheng, Me =)

My birthday cake with my initials

3rd August
The day started with some birthday SMS from friends =) Then sadly, a lot of them didn't get to turn up in the last minute, Sylvia and Chu Xian turned up for my day, I felt embarrass because there was so little people, but I won't let it affect my day, I took them to Sushi King for lunch. Sylvia presented me a gift =) thanks :D, then after that we went for Pool, Sylvia didn't know how to play so Chu XIan played with me and lost badly .. because he was a beginner. I felt like a bully X_X. After that, we went for bowling X_X I managed to score 2 perfect score only haha .... then after the game of bowling, we decided to go back because Chu Xian had to rush things in the college. I wanted to bring him somewhere to eat, but maybe another time la =) I had a fun day also, thanks for the company, Sylvia and Chu Xian =) Thanks a lot :D

Sing-K at Red Box - Low Yat

It's my first time going to karaoke with my friends ... I must admit I suck in singing !! that's why I would never enter Malaysian Idol ! lol ... anyways it was a good outing. It started out as I need to go to Tong Shin Hospital to clean up my nose. Then, I quickly rush back to Mid Valley to meet up with my friends (Jia Hui, Chu Xian and Wei Cai) before heading to Low Yat =). Thanks for Chu Xian for fetching all of us there .. I am not that experience in running around Kuala Lumpur city :S I get confused easily with the roads ... but slowly but surely, I'll learn how to move about.

We sang for more than 4 hours X_X talk about having sore throat !, but it was fun at the same time, Jia Hui sing like a professional !!, We might plan to have INTI idol soon lol and Jia Hui can be the INTIMA representative !! omg ... then she'll be so happy if she wins :P, Chu Xian didn't sing much ahhh X_X maybe not his style ... same as mine =.= I just sang for fun :P, Wei Cai sing a lot of songs ooo hehe... later comment here ahh !!, I had a lot of laughter. After that session, my friend had to rush back to college for assignment (I also have an assignment due on monday !! argh need to complete it asap after typing this). Sadly, we didn't have the time to go hang kai around other places ... time is soooo precious as you get older ... X_X

P:S forgot to add that wei cai kena the automatic pole X_X I failed to save him, luckily he survived lol ... ok just joking =.=;; I called him 3 seconds before that thing hit him X_X but he still walk at the direction @_@

INTI Ball 2007

INTI Ball 2007 was great, the food was so-so however ... but then again, ladies on that night were fantastically prettier than normal college days, cosmetics really works wonder to ladies, but then again, it's also a night where a lot of love are wrongly chosen out of appearance. Beauty won't win the challenge against time, a ripe beautiful red apple will soon turn into a rotten dirty old apple. Love is count by what is in the heart.

The ball left me a lot of sweeter memories compared to my prom night 2005. The theme was "Today's dream, Tomorrow's memories". The night will always be remembered by myself as a beautiful night filled with dreams that I wanted to achieve, and today it's my memories as I still remember what I dreamt yesterday. Congratz to my friend that won the prom queen, Jia Hui =) and also for the great drama performance by Sarah and Elaine. After that, we had some picture sessions, I'll keep it as my sweet memories. I felt really really happy that night, it's the night that I didn't stop laughing happily and smiling all the way back home :D. @_@ The dance floor was a little too small to accommodate 300+ people ... and the music was too loud.

We received some hampers from Nescafe but sadly I didn't do the free tattoo T_T, it really looked so cool, wanted to pose with it ... but haiz ... too late because the booth was already closed when the ball started.

Argh !

Throws a pebble onto another pebble, you'll bounce the other pebble.

I am just so blur about a certain thing. I wish my heart and mind has another desire. Filling another person's heart with love is hard when your own heart doesn't have enough love.

I'm losing weight ! Why ? Well I don't know, Maybe I've been neglecting myself a lot lately. I'll start to double up my food intake from now on to achieve 14 KG ! Seriously ! I have never seen myself losing 4 KG before. This is a shock !

I've been sick with a bad sore throat for a week now, I wonder why it's not cured yet. I presented badly in my marketing course with the bad cough-cum-presentation. You can start imagine how it was like.

I just got my results today, NOT very happy with it, argh feels like the world is gonna drop on me, I don't feel like thinking about life for the moment, I am so lost.
What are you lost in you might ask, I am lost in life - love - studies - friends and basically everything that moves around in my head.

My eyes spins whenever I hear most of my classmates speaks in mandarin while they can't speak in Cantonese or English. I feel awkward at times, it makes me don't feel like communicating with them as I feel so lost, can't they be more considerate, after all we are still Chinese Malaysian.

I don't think I will ever get her, she's far away beyond my reach, she doesn't even notice me anyway. Probably my curse to swear that I will never get a girlfriend for the next 10 years is coming true since I made it after my last crush. God how I hate myself for being an ass hole and also to everyone, I don't think I even deserve good friends.

Sign off

Facing Destruction Once Again

When you play with fire, you're bound to get fired somehow.

I've been into relationship again. The very main reason everyone wants to be in a relationship is because they want to have some sense of belonging in another person's mind and heart. Yet again I face the destruction in my mind troubling and thinking how to make her mine. It's so much easier to communicate to another person if you think that you are just going to be a mutual friend that's all. Somehow it's harder to speak up to the person that you like. Fearing that they might give negative opinion or a big shock that might leave a scar in your mind.

My friends have always told me that love isn't hard and there is no easy way to get it unless you are very stubborn into the relationship. I tried once to be stubborn and the rest should be untold as it is filled with pain and suffering that no man will want to go through himself. Maybe it isn't my time yet to like another person. I haven't learn the value to not give up so easily, think positive at all times and be calm at every situation. What's more if I make another person's life a misery instead of happiness.

It's funny how my mind works up every time I like another person. Happy thoughts will come and recede with sadness, disapproval and disappointment. Sometimes I hope I never see love itself again after burying the bad one's that I've experienced so far.

Every human being wants acknowledgment, somehow I only get the hard way to be notified as if I got a monster in myself. Life is getting so tough to cling on without anyone beside me. I felt as if my edge has become blunt in life as I fall into the loneliness syndrome. How I hate people judging others through their covers.

There hasn't been a goodness that happened in my life that I would like to remember. Others have happiness as they had friends celebrating their birthday, enjoying rides in theme park together. I've never gone through this. I lack the reliable people around me. All I can do is dream on everyday, imagine that the next day is just another day. Hoping that my life will end somehow from suffering instead of some beauty in life.

I wonder when I will stop ranting about poor old life of mine. I wish I can, probably that would stop me blogging horror vision of my life and post some happiness.

Note

Felt a little sick this weekend due to dryness, should have drank more water with the rising heat these few days.

I had my hands tied up with assignments these few days not to mention having a test next week. I need to double my effort this Sunday. Sadly, I'll busy for the next few weeks with assignments keep coming on. My lecturers are very fuzzy with every detail in our assignment.

I've been watching Underworld and Underworld : Evolution (Part 2) directed by Len Wisemen. It's a great movie I must say, I love werewolves and vampires. Kate Beckinsale is 1 sexy woman inside the movie being the main character. I can't wait for the next installment of the part 3 in year 2009. That will be a little ahead of time but time will catch up with everyone soon.

Movies that awaits in my watching list right now would be Harry Potter. Hopefully I won't be busy during that time.

I've been listening a lot lately to Good Charlotte's : Keep your hands off my girl. I think I got addicted to it's starting beat. A lot of people said it's a bad production from the band. True in some part because the message is not clear in the song.

I'm kind of frustrated with people being selfish minded in my campus. I am doing them a favor but they are not appreciating it. It's sad that people are so narrow minded and can't take up responsibility. E.g I printed notes for the whole class and there is at least 1 black sheep that doesn't purchase it. It makes me feel awkward to become a class representative.

My dad has finally decided to buy a new Ford Ranger (TDCI <-- if i am not mistaken, correct me if i am wrong). This is so cool since it's a light truck with 5 auto gears. I only get my car changed after I graduate. I don't really put a lot of interest into purchasing a great car that can go 150 km/h. As long as it can brings me to my destination, I am happy enough.

I hope all my friends are doing great, it's been a long time since I hang out with you guys. I got tired with DOTA and computer games, haha. Don't get me wrong of being too "pro" but I think games are boring me (talk about gaming since 10 yrs old), I only play them during my leisure now.

That's all for now, I need to get back to my assignment

Meaning

Hmmm I know anyone would be tired to hear someone weeping over another thing over and over again. So I've finally decided to do something as a change. Some sad "dude" that actually called me a dude over the comment on my previous post. I'm sad to say that I've to enable my comment moderation to clean trashes from the comment box. Anyways to get things started, I need not to weep over that dude's pitiful comment over what so called as a "painful" remark that the dude tried to make that he/she could actually think it'll work to make anyone sad but me. I got over for weeping over friendship that goes on a bad cart over the hills. You need not to remind me of why I am disliked. Because you are just another human that just reads the cover of a book.

I don't think I need to get all the high and mighty in this post to make you look down. But I have to say that, everyone has their own choice, not only your rubbish view. If you think I don't deserve it, well it's your choice, there are still a thousand over people to make their decision. Sorry to say that the world is run this way with majority. And it will be painful to have a person like you "dude" to be a leader because you are not capable to value a person. Moreover, you are just another bad mouthing rat that spreads toxic to your poor friends to consume lies. Then again, I appreciate that you actually took your time to find my friendster and between your friends to get my blogspot.

Just forget it about trying to fire more fire crackers into my blogspot. I'm tired of seeing those colour effects. You might be thinking "o cool a reply from the jerko, let's tell everyone to read". Well read on, because I will still continue to ride on this world and in my blog as I wish to post anything I want to post about rather it's about you, my life, or anything else. And I can choose to judge whether if you're welcome or not.

I'm not the person here that is trying to create a bad flame war, but I guess you (dude) started it. Good night